Keith Linnozel

2012-02-19T02:19:00.001+08:00

Proud

2012-02-18T01:08:00.001+08:00

"patriotic much. love it."

Was reading through the posts I wrote back then.

I was kinda shocked in fact. It was filled with so much love and hate. I probably wrote it when I wasn't emotionally stable and everything just came out in a blast like wild fire.

But whatever, I don't even know how to feel anymore.

3 theoretical papers next week and it's weighing me down so much.

My head just hurts so much from all this. What a mess indeed.

Goodbye then.

Australia

2012-02-15T02:30:00.001+08:00

Talked to dad about NS today. Figured that wasting two years of my life serving the nation wasn't pretty much worth it at all. But I do love Singapore. How patriotic.

I need to get a degree fast. Fast enough that I could ever imagine so I can get the fuck outta this shit life I'm stuck with. Well, the talk came to a conclusion. I'm jumping bail for NS and this sounds really crazy.

Looked through a couple of schools in Australia. University of Adelaide seems good. What more starting a brand new life there? But this also meant I wouldn't be able to return back to Singapore anymore or I'd be dead.

I've to give up everything in other words. Mum wasn't much pretty happy about it, but I could understand. But staying wouldn't do me any good either. I still have a couple of months left before I'm enlisted, I'll make it count I guess.

Everything seems hopeful suddenly. I just have to make the right choice. Yeah cross roads, cross roads and more fucking cross roads.

Living alone wasn't pretty much a challenge anymore. I'm geared for it. And Malaysia is just a 15 minutes drive away from Singapore. I can still meet my friends as always. Doesn't make much of a difference.

Seems like the right thing to do after all, judging from circumstances. I need to leave this place soon, real soon. If I stay any longer I might really go nuts. Away from all these mess that is.

I need a new life.

Anyway, happy valentine's day to all.

现在很想见你.

2012-02-13T02:04:00.001+08:00

This week was rather an emotional one. Okay not really, I guess every other week was emotional as well for me. It was the last day of school. To be honest, I was kinda happy about it cos now I've got nothing weighing me down. But it'a a little sad cos I won't be seeing my mates anymore. We've been through so much thick and thin together. But that's one side of it.

Anyway, I'm so tired. I'd wish I'll never had to wake up to face another day. Everyday I struggle to cuddle myself into bed and pray I never get to see the morning ever again. I've to swim past the day every single day thinking I'll be fine. Then when night hits, I'm back to square one.

I hate to say this, but cigarettes are what's keeping me alive. And now here I am, at the crossroads once again.

NS, Uni and a relationship.

Idk where I should be heading for Uni. Arts and social science seems like the only way out for now. I'd love to continue taking business but local uni isn't gonna accept me for such grades. Probably University of Adelaide might work, australia here I come.

I was ready to give it all up for you. I really do. To be honest, I was really hurt deep down after knowing what you did. I broke down once again cos I didn't know how to feel anymore.

But when I remembered about the plans we had for the future, I still choose to believe. No matter what you did, I'll still love you for who you are. I had conflicted opinions from bystanders telling me to give you up. But no, I still choose to believe. I really do.

I'm still fighting cos you meant a lot to me.

:'(

2012-02-06T09:20:00.001+08:00

God. I just woke up a moment ago and I really need to blog this down.

No matter how much I tried to forget you or hate you for the things and the way you treated me, I felt worst inside out. Idk why. Maybe I just love you too much.

I woke up with tears in my eyes. I dream about you, about us. I dreamt about how we were still together and starting all over from fresh.

I'd wish you come back soon, I really do.

I hope you see my face and that you'll be reminded that for me it isn't over.

Just Thoughts

2012-02-04T01:27:00.001+08:00

Was wondering what's gonna happened tomorrow for entrepreneurship day. God i'd hope it'll turn out well. Went thru hell for this fucking module.

That goes my Saturday. Damn.

Went for NS medical check up yesterday. Got a shocked of my life. Came back from Holland with 52kg. Right now I'm 46.8kg! Wtf I probably starve myself too much cos of the lost of appetite. Oh well I need more fats. Haha.

Anyway, the people present at the medical check up were kinda freaky. Hope I don't get to see them again. Heh.

Goodnight danse diabolique.

Better Off Without You

2012-01-31T20:42:00.002+08:00

I figured keeping things to myself wasn't a way out. I'd rather let it out.

Hoho, it's been sometime. Things have gotten better indeed.

Thanks to Angel and the others who were there for me through out this trying period, I think I probably needed some time to straighten things out.

Hectic week this week but it's fine cos i've gotten a free iPhone 4s somehow :D Thank you sista.

I realized I react to things very quickly cos I treasure the moments I once had.

I swore to myself once that I'll continue fighting cos you're worth it.

But I guess, it isn't fair to me after all.

I hate to see myself suffer while you smirk your way through thinking I'll still try no matter what.

But after what happened last weekend, I figured you didn't much careless about my existence nor feelings.

I feel stupid torturing myself subconsciously.

Maybe you're right I'm better off without you.

Chinese New Year

2012-01-22T23:22:00.000+08:00

I've been lazing around at home ever since then. It's Chinese New Year. For all I know, you wouldn't even give a damn about it. I've been trying to get updates about you all these while and hoping you'll contact me soon enough. But as usual, you did nothing about it.

Anyway, Jolene retweeted you and one of your tweets caught my eye.

"I stay up waiting, anticipating and pacing" - I've been trying very hard not to contact you. Every time I pick up my phone, I struggled so hard to resist myself from calling you. The only way I could calm myself down is to constantly tell myself that you're busy with work, you're busy with work. And yes, that tweet might not even be referring to me. You could be staying up late waiting for your group mates to complete their work, anticipating that they'll send you their parts soon and pacing around because the deadline is at 12.

I've been thinking about you the entire week. Asking myself how you've been doing. But no, you need to learn how to appreciate me more. A friend of mine told me that this kinda relationships is all about being physical. But in our case, I beg to differ. It's a mixture of both.

I been trying very hard to get over you though. But I still think about you every moment regardless of in the night or the day. But I doubt you even think about me. I need to get stronger. I must. I've been trying very hard to force food down my throat and taking pills to sleep. It's crazy, I know. But I don't have a choice.

The only way out was to contact you, to see you, to give you a hug. But I figured that it'll only make matters worst. I honestly wanna give you a call and ask how you've been doing. But when I got reminded of how you made me go through hell again the second time, I hesitated. I'd rather make you miss me even more. Of course, if I were to meet you, things would get worst.

I'm still in the midst of controlling my emotions. I'm still very unstable. For all you know, I might be pulling the stunt again and threatening to kill myself before your very eyes.

But whatever it is, I hope you'll call me soon.

I miss you.

If moving on was so easy, then I guess I didn't love you at all.

End of the week!

2012-01-20T17:24:00.001+08:00

It's finally the end of the week! This week was so horrible and nerve wrecking for me.

Well, I don't really know if i should say this, but i'm really very thankful for C. This surge of negativity just hit me straight right after the lecture this afternoon and all I wanted to do was to go home. But then, C just appeared out of no where and gave me a big hug from behind. God, I swear it was the most comforting hug I ever had. To be honest, I almost broke now and cry thinking it was you. But no, it wasn't. He just held me so tightly and ask if I'm okay while cracking a joke to lighten up the mood a little. Sorry about the cheesiness. But those hands that wrapped around me were indeed very comforting judging from what I'm going thru right now. But in any case, I'm pretty sure his gay judging from his actions and all although he has a girlfriend :O

I would very much love to return that hug when I see him next week though ^^

But whatever, I don't want to beg. I don't want to be the lesser one. I'd of course hope, you'll appear at my doorstep some day, giving me a call or a text soon. It's been 5 days since I last contacted you. I'm pretty sure you're doing very well judging from how you're doing it. Oh well, I spoke to Kai Ying yesterday night regarding this issue and we both agreed on this:

If you really love me, you'll fight for me.
If you truly love me, you'll love me right.

Haircut

2012-01-18T22:46:00.002+08:00

Just had my hair cut today. I think i looked like a kid now. Hahahaha. It's been like 3 days since i last contacted you. Whoa! How did i even manage to do this?! No fucking idea man.

I just had to make myself happy and happy and happier. That looks like the only thing i could do for now since my existence is constantly ignore. Good job.

Mehh. I'm getting very promiscuous recently. I saw K in school TWICE. I loved the look in his eyes. That curiosity look in his eyes gives me the feeling that he wants a conversation with me. Lol. Sadly, I do not know him personally. In fact, I don't know him at all. He caught my eye with his features. His mop hair, sharp nose and fair looking skin. Gosh, so one of a kind. Apparently, his a fucking nerd. Well, a good looking smart ass nerd. He holds a GPA of 3.7 and above if i remember correctly. If only..If only.

Oh well, life sucks when I'm alone all over again. But a different kind of loneliness hits me this time round. When you get so dependent on someone and that someone fucks you upside down by leaving you to fend for yourself. You can only hope that random strangers will pick you up from there and shower you with some love.

Till then.

Stressful Week

2012-01-16T18:22:00.001+08:00

I just ended service marketing presentation. It was terrible. The other teams were all so pumped up with kicks. My team apparently screwed me up last night. I haven't slept a wink since then. And I really hope I'd receive a text or a call from someone asking about how i'm doing.

Okay, I'm just lacking of love. I need more love. Hahahaha. So cheesy. But ya, i'm so addicted to love.

Well, maybe if some random guy just pop up. I'd go with the flow. Saw a couple of hotties in school today. They seem new to me cos i haven't seem them before. They most probably are in Year 1 or 2. But interesting as it seems, I really loved having eyegasm. I was staring at this guy whom resembles D somehow. And i swear, i couldn't stop staring. Well, till his friend caught me eye-fucking him and I pretended that I was looking around. Aha.

Well. I saw Z today. He works @ A&F too. But with his gf. I don't really know him though. But his hot and cute man. He kinda caught my eye since year 1. And ever since, i've been noticing him so much. Though his short, it really fits his personality well. I would definitely make out with him if i'd had the chance. Too bad his straight. Oh damn.

But aye. I'm behaving like a promiscuous boy here now. But I don't really care.

To be honest, I somehow lost my pride and dignity along the way. But fuck it.

For all i know, you really don't give a fuck about me anymore.

Hahahaha. Okay now i feel guilty. I promised to stay faithful to you. But hey, you cheated on my physically once. I guess I could very well get a sugar daddy soon. Then I'll be fucking rich.

Was talking wit matt and jo about entering Uni. I kinda don't wanna study anymore. Besides, I kinda lost myself along the way. Hopefully that feeling of self-worth would return soon. Papa's waiting for you to come back to me! Mehh. I lost confidence in myself now. How terrible can I get?

Jesus, why did I allowed myself to sink so low. NOOOOOOOOOOOOO. But fuck it, I need to get to Uni. I need to get out of this shit hole.

ARMY IS COMING. I should probably just declare myself gay openly. Then i'll be posted to the gay bunk, forming a social circle with gay people and get laid every night. LOL.

Okay keith is going bonkers.

Fine, my rant ends here.

Love you danse diabolique. Just dance like the world's ending okay! I need to start shuffling soon.

Just Rants

2012-01-15T12:11:00.001+08:00

I should probably start accepting the fact that you are being oblivious to my existence. Mehh. I loved you so much man. I really love you so so much.

But okay. Get hold of yourself keith! I need to start accepting this is part and parcels of life. I'm only 21 this year. Why stood so low to a 18 year old? You constantly whined about me not loving you right. I just read your blog entry in March. Exactly one month after i left for holland. You didn't loved me right from the start either. You knew you were just making use of me. Much less me calling you my life partner would mean nothing to you either.

In May, you blog about me cheating on you with Rachael. Again, you emphasised on life partner. How is that so? One moment, you said you don't think you love me. You are worried my love for you will not be reciprocated. Next moment, you want me to love you right even though you didn't loved me right from the start either. Damn what is this?

READ WHAT YOU WROTE ON YOUR BLOG:

"IF YOU TRULY LOVE ME, YOU'LL LOVE ME RIGHT." - Darrick Chew

You cannot make up your fucking mind right now either. If i had the chance, I'll never walk that same path again with you. If time could turn back, I'll would hold you hand, look into your eyes before i leave and say it's over between us.

Okay wtf is wrong with you keith? You don't even know what you're saying. Okay i just gotta accept the fact that when I rant, nothing make sense outta it.

Maoooo. I think from the bottom of my heart I LOVED you right. Even though i don't really know what is love. At least, I have loved you the way i understand what love is.

You said I am better off without you. You said you are a terrible person to be with and people will never understand how fucked up it is to be with you.

From the way I see it, you chose to let me go because you love me. You didn't want me to suffer another day with you. Okay this might not even be true. But I'm just consoling myself perhaps.

But whatever it is, no matter how fucked up you are or the situation is. I AM YOUR BOYFRIEND LEH. I AM YOUR BOYFRIEND, HELLO? YOU HEAR ME? I AM DARRICK CHEW JUN JIE'S BOYFRIEND. I SWORE OVER MY LIFE THAT I WILL STOOD BY YOU THRU THE THICK AND THIN WHEN I DECIDED TO TAKE YOUR HAND OFFICIALLY ON 5TH JULY 2011.

AND LOOK! My existence is not valued by the one person I went through so much for.

You probably need to go through this phrase of your life to learn how to appreciate people better. I've been through that long ago. I'm ending my final semester in another month while you still have 2 more years to go!

And wow! It's been 3 full years. Going on to the forth year of knowing you already.

It's been the 7th month since we got our love intertwined together.

Time flies. I had the share of your love and you had mine.

I would of course wish this will go on forever. And when i say forever. I really mean forever.

But nothing matters now.

I don't know what the future hold for us darrick.

At least now I can proudly proclaim i've been thru this love and pain of a relationship.

The moulding process was tough. But nevertheless, love is complicated.

Unearthly beings like me would never understand.

How It All Started & Ended

2012-01-13T06:27:00.002+08:00

A meets B @ church. A and B started out as friends with benefits. Both A & B had a history of 4 long years. It wasn't smooth sailing of course.

One fine day, B confessed to A about his loved for him. A was confused. A didn't know what to do about it. But in any case, they were still good friends.

After sometimes, A needed to go Holland for 5 months. B was very sad. Very depressed.

A decided to take the first step of love towards B. A made many promises to B.

But when A was in Holland, due to confusion of sexual preference. A made a mistake and gone into a relationship with a random girl. But things didn't work out cos he wasn't sure where he stands.

A came back to Singapore. Met up with B again. Apologized and started with officially in a relationship. B felt he was the spare tire. He was sad. Time and time again through the moulding of differences. They both fought many times, many.

B was tired. He gave up. But A was so in love with him. A did everything else just to win him back. At that same time, B cheated on A with C. A was so depressed about it and even wanted to commit suicide.

After sometimes, A & B got back together leaving C to fend for himself. But it wasn't the same for A & B anymore. Though there were still many happy times together. The love B had for A started fading though he still love A very much.

During this entire process, A got so obsessed with B. He put his family, studies and work all behind B. But it wasn't the same case for B. His egoism grown so much that his lust for power and wealth is his success.

He sacrificed A for these treasures he wanted. A was depressed all over again. A as usual tried to reconciled with B. But nothing works.

Both A & B was tired of this relationship. But A didn't wanted to give it all up, while B had already made up his mind.

Through the entire process of love, it was very tough and straining.

But on the 12th January 2012, it was over for them.

It's heart breaking but if it's the best for both worlds, it should very well be over.

--- THE END ---

If only you loved me right

2012-01-11T13:17:00.000+08:00

This is tough, like fucking tough. I don't understand why you have to make me go through this twice. TWICE.

I loved you too much that i'm obsessed with you. I put you above all else. My family, my studies, my work. And this is what I get in return. I'm so fucking depressed over the fact that you left me hanging by a moment all by myself while you do well in your life.

To even think about killing myself. That was plain stupid. I admit it was. But i was overly emotional, i couldn't control myself. I'm gonna put every else of you aside and get back up on my feet.

I have to get you off my mind. Facebook, Twitter, MSN and even Skype. I need to put you aside for now.

You just love tormenting me so much. I don't understand why.

I really loved you. I changed so much for you. I stayed faithful while you cheat on me. I gave you my all while you gave me your shit.

Thank you love for fucking me upside down.

The old me's dead and gone.

2012-01-10T20:40:00.000+08:00

I don't even know what to say anymore. I feel so hurt inside. So depressed. Save me from this agony.

last year's wishes are this year's apologies

2012-01-07T18:14:00.001+08:00

Been rather exhausted from work these days. Started working a week ago at A&F. Was quite a pleasant experience I would say. Caught up with my primary school mate - Melissa whom I haven't met for years who also intro-ed me this job. I probably left a deep impression on her in my adolescent years.

A&F was just plain tiring. Non-stop folding of clothes. But thankfully the people there are nice. I like the fact that we work together as a team. Then at the end of the day, I can boast about the entire shelves of polos that I folded and got praised by Jacob ^^. Sometimes it could be as hell that I work till 7 or 9 in the morning. Well, that's just crazy.

I met a couple of people who were out of the closet. Interesting, but it kinda freaks me out a little. Jacob's a nice guy. But every time he walks past me or tried to smoke me from the side when I'm unaware and giving me that look in his eyes. Whoa. I don't know what to say. Mel was saying he likes me because of the way he treats me. Haha but whatever, I'm only here for the moolah.

Sometimes setting priorities could be difficult because we don't get reciprocated for what we did. We still get treated second on the list. Not once, not twice. But countless of times. How amazing is that? Even writing a proper card could be so tough that we end up scribbling general points out of it for that sake of completing one.

~~Almost~~ EVERY festive season would end up a depressing one for me. Well, I don't really celebrate much of these festivals but I do believe celebrating it with someone special would meant a lot for both. But it wasn't the case for some. It's just another day. Nothing special. To correctly phrase it, it's just a display of nonchalance.

Well, I don't know. Sometimes people don't appreciate not because they don't want to but because they never learn to. Maybe their ego grown so much that they fail to notice. Maybe having lesser expectations will lead to lesser disappointments.

So now comes the question - Why do I even try?

I don't know man. I spent the entire day thinking of stuff. I probably wasted my entire day on this one-sided issue that's not gonna change.

I should very well stop wasting time fulfilling the needs of others and shortchanging myself.

I have the right to feel happy in 2012.

My head hurts and my heartaches.

I don't want to try anymore.

School

2011-12-15T10:24:00.000+08:00

Woooo. I've gotten an A for my Industrial Placement Program. Damn fucking proud of it.

School's a drag now. So many things coming my way. Had sleepless nights with my mac a couple of nights ago. Trying to squeeze content out for a report is not easy. Seems like microsoft word's my best friend now and my cough isn't treating me very well either. Finished the whole bottle of cough mixture and antibiotics but doesn't seem to work. Rahhhhhhh.

School holidays are coming next week. But no not for me. Look at the work load that has been piled up. I think i've been doing fairly well in school. So far, all the test I've been able to nail it through.

Entrep's today. No doubt we do the same. I've very proud of my team mates though! They work their ass off like never before. To be honest, I think we'll beat the other groups hands down, much less pants down. Look the the confidence we have there ya.

That's about it. I need to get going for a presentation. Wish me luck.

Eccentricity

2011-11-29T00:55:00.001+08:00

I don't understand why sometimes you're being so eccentric. You change your mood so erratically without giving warnings. The next thing I know, things backfire and I'm to blame for making an effort to put a smile on your face.

How amazing is that? I should very well refrain from talking to you through a source of medium anymore.

I don't know when things could just turned sour in a split second. It's like playing with fire. You don't know when the volcano is gonna erupt.

It's too risky and that's something we cannot prevent from happening.

hanging by a moment here with u.

Kick Ass Day 2

2011-11-23T07:10:00.001+08:00

Today is gonna be another day of kick ass.

Finished entrep assignment last night.

I need to do so much better.

那些年，我們一起追的女孩

2011-11-21T16:53:00.001+08:00

Surprisingly the movie as mentioned above was damn sweet, although the ending wasn't a happy one. Kinda brings back many nostalgic moments in secondary school.

Been awhile since I last posted here. So much going on recently. Well not really, just my personal life perhaps. As usual projects, deadlines, test. Apparently, my mates are all still in their happy-mode. Time for some kick ass time.

I've learnt so much recently. So much ups and downs in life. Sometimes I just wished we didn't existed. Everyone's being so eccentric all of a sudden. Haven't really been studying for almost a year - like in depth kind of studying ever since I returned in July. This semester is a tough shit one. It's not surprising to find that the tutorial questions has nothing in relation to the lecture that was last taught. Amazing isn't it?

Rahhh. What's next - National Service. 3 years of poly is ending like a flash. Felt like I just started school not long ago.

I need to start thinking about what I'm gonna do next.

This is me tonight.

2011-09-04T20:52:00.002+08:00

I don't know how long more i can take this mental torture.

I just wanted to see you smile although deep down it hurts to see you go.

Yesterday was my longest night.

I don't know how I got through it. But knowing that you're finally smiling just warms my heart inside out.

Walking down that stretch of dark road reminded me of you again.

The next thing I knew, the conversation ended with that last drip of lithium.

All i wanted next was to get back home to reply that last sentence of mine.

Never did i expected, I tripped and everything just blacked out on me.

I couldn't control and I just allowed myself to fall.

I thought that was the end.

To be honest, I felt happy. I don't know why. It's like I finally reached the limits of it all.

When i woke up eventually, I cried so badly. I thought it was a dream.

I wanted you here so badly.

All that unconsciousness just fills me in.

Didn't matter how I got back.

But I'll hold on cos I know it will get brighter.

City of Love

2011-09-03T11:46:00.002+08:00

....The waves just gushed in within minutes. All that was there came crashing down, leaving bits and pieces behind. All this happened because we took things for granted. Selfish beings only cared for their self interest.

Everything was seems fine at first. What we couldn't see was swept under the rug too many a times that causes the eruption.

The entire city which was built up with love was gone. There wasn't a foundation from the start. But from time to time, we tried doing what we could to make it last and uncertainty filled us in.

Now what was left were only the bits and pieces of everything that was built up. No matter how much men tried to salvage the city, the fact is this: it's gone.

They went separate ways for now and one just decided to sail hoping he will find a better city.

Another just sat down, ponder over what went wrong and starting picking up the pieces although he don't know how long it'll take to build another city all by himself but he sure is determined about it.

Although many told him it wasn't possible no more. Tears just filled his eyes and he continued picking them up one by one.

Many tried helping him, but left after awhile.

The truth is this:

The one picking up everything, risking his life for this city is me.

I hope you'll come back eventually and join me soon.

Matching the pieces together and being sure it will last this time.

I've secured the dams for now. I can't guarantee if the weather is gonna turn bad from time to time.

But one thing for sure, the dams will stop the waves from coming in.

I'll leave the doors open and it always will.

I hope you will sail back soon, i'll be right here waiting for you.

"Nothing matters when everything else matters."

I'm Coming Home

2011-06-25T09:23:00.009+08:00

Woohooo. I'm almost done here in The Netherlands. 5 more days yo!

Anyway, i'll talk about my trip to London. I swear London was the only city that sense after being around europe for a couple of months.

To start off, i had a very bad day on Friday itself. I screwed up my econs paper and i was feeling very depressed over it. However, the feeling of anticipation over London just brewed over it all. I came back home planning to take a break and i found out my morning train to the airport was cancelled. So this would meant i've gotta leave for the airport tonight.

Left hurriedly to do my laundry, and guess what? It rained. Cycled so hard against the wind and rain to reach the laundromat. Did some metal planning about how i was gonna go about doing it. Came back home after that to pack my stuff and left for dinner with a few friends @ Da Xin Chinese Restaurant (Opened by a Singaporean). The atmosphere in there was pretty similar to Singapore. Felt very home for once. Hehehe.

Anyway, i left for the train station after dinner and the announcement said some dude set himself on fire and jump off the tracks in Goes - which is a few stops after my station. So apparently, the train got delayed for like 30 mins. Finally after a long wait, i managed to board the train to Eindhoven.

Upon reaching my destination, i took the last bus to the airport and guess what? The airport was closed. I'm like shit, what's with everything going against me today? Saw a few people waiting outside the airport too though. Spoke with a random guy who was from Slovakia and we decided to walk towards a nearby McDonalds which is like 5 kilometers away with my heavy bag. Ended up we found that the mac was closed @ 1am while we reach around 2 plus.

Okay that's all for the bad luck. Now something better.

I met someone who was also on exchange in Switzerland at the hostel i was staying, and she's a Singaporean! Kinda surprised at first but thankfully we get along quite well. We did some weird shit like going for a court hearing @ the Royal Court of Justice. Okay, i know that is stupid but it was interesting though! Oh yes, i also visited Hillsongs London Church. Kinda cool in fact. But no, i ain't no Christian.

Yup that's about it. After that its all about the sight seeing and shopping. I guess i'll just leave it to the pictures to do the talking. You can find them on my facebook (:

Lastly, I should be landing in Singapore on 1st July 2011, 3:25pm @ Terminal 1.

I'll keep you guys updated again! :D

Exams

2011-06-02T22:36:00.003+08:00

Some of you guys might have already know about my exams schedule, 4 papers in one particular day. Seriously, I really don't know how to survive that misery.

Anyway, just got a call from my mum telling me not to eat cucumbers, how sweet is that! Haha. Even though it's just a short call of only 10 minutes, I felt i've got so much to tell her.

28 more days to gaga moments! Can't wait!

Sunset Cruise 2011

2011-05-26T09:35:00.003+08:00

This whole week was apparently packed to the brim with reports and reports. Skipped a couple of lessons cos I wasn't pretty much feeling the best of me. Don't really know how to word it, but you get what I meant. Okay i got it, I'm just plain tired and lethargic. Lol.

Okay anyway, I went for a gala dinner on a cruise ship today. I swear partying on a cruise ship awesome to the max. After all, it was Michelle Sayer's birthday. The atmosphere was kinda flowing through everyone so yeah. Had some small chats with Honorine and Melanie. Guess everyone is just feeling as shit as ever as to wanting to get back home.

Booked my trip to London from the 18th of June till the 22nd of June. After that, i'll come back to Vlissingen to bid farewell to everyone and head off to Amsterdam for a couple of days before I finally head back to Singapore. The days here are numbered and I'm really excited.

Most prolly will be back on the 25th or 26th for now. Will keep you guys posted again.

Till then!

Den Haag & Utrecht

2011-05-22T08:16:00.017+08:00

Today was pretty much like an outing day. Went to Den Haag & Utrecht to tour around. Nothing impressive i would say. After being in europe for close to 4 months, everything seems the same. Or rather, i just got bored of it somehow. Haha. The traveling part was the tiring part. Gotta change trains to bus and back again cos the tracks were under maintenance.

Anyway, i just come across this video on youtube. Kinda reminds me of my Grandpa whom i looked up to very much in my early years of childhood. Still so vivid to me and I still miss him as always.

Here it is: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ECsLdWxFyJs

108th Day In The Netherlands

2011-05-20T10:13:00.005+08:00

Whoa. It's been rather long since i did some updates here.

Time really flies and i've been here in the Netherlands for close to 4 months and it was pretty awesome. Kinda had a cultural shocked when i first got here and stuff like that. But all is good now. It wasn't easy adapting to a new environment but nonetheless, i learnt a lot.

The pace of life was rather slow. Sometimes it goes too slow that u just want things to happen. Did a little shit here and there that caused me to get depressed about certain things. But seriously, it wasn't easy. 5 months isn't long and but it isn't short either. I've experienced many many life changing moments that i wouldn't say no to. But at the of the day, home still matters.

This may really sound like a home sick post that i would usually write. But no, I'm just so glad to be here that i really hope some important people in my life would be here to share it with me. I think I've seen a lot, and i really do and yes, i still ponder a lot about life.

To even think that all will be fine when I'm outta Singapore, it's bullshit. There are still many many struggles in life that i faced. Some ain't accountable for and some are just me.

I would just have to admit that I'm eccentric at times but i don't really care. Sometimes i just felt so sandwiched because I cannot decide what i really wanted. Simply because I'm still confused. You reading this now would be questioning me about what I just wrote but i wouldn't wanna elaborate further. You just need to know that i feel bad about certain issues.

I only know that if i had taken another step straight down this path, there's no turning back. So I'm standing by just waiting to find out more. I shouldn't be making this mistake twice. I know shit is gonna happen again. But I'd rather be honest.

All this time, while the world passes us by.

What will we leave behind, but the pages of our lives?

Woooohoooo!

2010-11-19T00:33:00.005+08:00

Alright i'm back! Sorry didn't had time to blog for the whole of last week. Apparently, i was kinda busy enjoying school and stuff. Stay over session @ nick's place, Mini-Challenger Carnival and buying of my winter wear.

Kinda interesting week though.

1. I drove a real car the first time in my life.
2. Bought $310 worth of winter wear for my trip next year.
3. Ate Indian Buffet @ China Town Point with EMRS peeps.
4. Movie @ PS with EMRS peeps.
5. Opening of Mini-Challenger @ NYP.
5. Lots and lots of crap.
6. Movie with Ben, Gen and Terry.

Anyway! Happy birthday to Peizhen & Vanessa! :D:D:D:D

Techno Dream

2010-11-08T21:15:00.003+08:00

School's the same. Had the Mega I.T Show going on as usual. Getting a little demoralize somehow. Was in-charge of the Toshiba laptops. But somehow at this point of time, there isn't a demand for laptops. So apparently sales was bad.

I don't really know why. But my banner seems to be falling off almost everyday. It's really getting on my nerves. I've to visit the atrium very early in the morning to get it fixed. Then the following day, it just fell off again. Oh well. Claimed urgent leave today and headed to lavender to get my passport renewed. I think my new passport photo looked awesome. Hahaha.

Alright nevermind. I'm tired as usual. But i'm getting used to this working life style. I just needed some good night sleep to straighten some things out and keep my mind out from wandering away.

kthxbai.

Happy Halloween

2010-10-31T21:27:00.011+08:00

Happy Halloween everyone! I had an awesome week i swear. School's getting interesting with all the peeps from EMRS. I had awesome people working with me. All of us were very much task-oriented while at the same time having lots of fun. We even ordered up to $100 worth of KOI bubble tea for delivery! :D

Not forgetting my clique's outing on Friday. It's been some time since we last had dinner together. Though i was really damn shag that day, we still had fun though! :D

Okay anyway, i did two crazy things this weekend. I went back to school on saturday and sunday to rush my a&p stuff! And i watched 3 horror movies all at one go! omfg.

It wouldn't have been crazy without Jasper & Jun Long. We went for Horrorthon @ Marina Sqaure along with Es - Jun Long's friend. Watched 2 thai movies at one go (Shutter & The Screen At Kamchanod). Both wasn't really scary i felt but we had free flow of popcorns & drinks to enjoy for the whole session. Just when we thought we could head home after the long tiring movie when it ended around 11pm, Jun Long suggested for Paranormal Activity 2. Everyone then got very excited that we proceeded straight to the counter to purchase the tickets without hesitation. Then after awhile, we were like "Are you serious? We just bought tickets for a movie again?!" LOL.

Anyway, Jasper was freaking hilarious. His malaysian 'qiang' together with his gay acting really kept us laughing through out the whole day. We almost died laughing man. Hahahaha.

Okay this is damn ironic but i'm really beginning to enjoy school. I enjoy doing the things i've been doing. Though its hard work but i really enjoy the process of it. The sense of accomplishment after an event really gets me going. Most of all, it's the people who made the difference. People who are not afraid to go the extra mile. People who take into consideration for every idea you gave while respecting your every decision. Even if they felt it didn't work, they gave their honest opinions. That's what i like :D

I guess this sums up my whole week aye. I'm still deciding on whether i should go for the cheena trip this december though :/

I shall go wash up and head to bed for now! Later (:

Mini-Road Show

2010-10-26T23:24:00.007+08:00

Had our EMRS mini-road show outside fastfood link way today! It was damn awesome i swear. Felt a sense of accomplishment after such a long day. After a full whole week of planning, the plan was finally executed. Didn't took much photos with me cos i didn't had time, Shereen did took many i believe. The whole of today was just plain madness. Anyway, thanks Heshun for the sweets :D

Reached school around 7.45am in the morning and i couldn't believe it myself. You reading this would be screaming "KEITH IN SCHOOL @ 7.45AM? SURE NOT!?", yes i did! Hahaha. Apparently, i was the earliest. Heeees. The others reached around 8 then the day started with moving of fixtures and stocks and etc.

And if you were wondering what we were selling - Razer products ranging from keyboards to mouse to earphones and mouse pads. Cooler master for cooling pads and icon for iphone cases/pouches. I remembered vividly we started sales @ 10.30am and by 12 noon, we were barely near $200. We only did like $100 plus when other teams all almost hit their targets, especially Team 2 with almost $400! We were damn desperate and we went mobile selling as our initial plan. Apparently, most of the blocks we went to were empty cos everyone was having classes. We even tried marketing Razer mouse to lecturers where we eventually got turned down.

However! When the lunch crowd started flowing in slowly, the items on sale went with the flow as well. This was when we decided to abandon mobile selling as our contingency plan and just station at the booth and hog everyone we see. The iphone cases were on higher demand i would say. But guess what?! At the end of the day, we didn't hit our target sales of $500. We hit way beyond our target sales with $1300! Awesome isn't it. I think my team really damn power, damn efficient. We cleared out the $51.50 mouse, $43.90 earphones and $18.50 cooling pad!

Okay that's not all, the big Mega I.T Fair is gonna be worst. But i'm really looking forward to working with many new peeps.

That's all for now. Till then.

Awesome Week

2010-10-24T13:37:00.010+08:00

The whole of this week was apparently filled with lots of preparations for the mini-road show held next week @ NYP's Atrium, followed by planning of the Mega I.T Fair. It was preparation and planning all the way. It was kinda hectic i would say. One thing for sure, the people i met were naise. My team were very on-task i would say - Cooperative. That's what i like the most :D

Went to help out in the community event held @ school yesterday. It was more or less catered to the senior citizens from different old forks homes. I was taking charge of Geylang Bahru with Jeremiah & Chu Rong. It was really a challenge man. I never knew i was this gracious. Lol. Apart from that, the event planning by the Life Science School was a fail one. The timing didn't flow well with the programme. But overall everyone did well and managed to pull thru the whole session. I guess i didn't wanna go into the details of the events cos i'm really brain dead right now.

Ever since TEP started, i find it hard to adapt to the timing man. It's like a 9 to 5 job everyday. The moment i reached home, it was dinner wash up and bed. Then the routine continues the next day and so on. I've like 8 more weeks to go. So not used to it. I've been like losing interest in almost everything man. Clique called me out for lan session yesterday but i wasn't in the mood for that, much less interested. Met them for dinner and chilling session however.

But at the end of the day, EMRS isn't such a bad choice though. I'm still very much looking forward to leaving Singapore in February next year.

I guess, i'll go snuggle in bed for now. I'm really damn shag :/

Second Day Of School

2010-10-19T19:59:00.006+08:00

One word to emphasize it - BORING.

Apparently, i did nothing in school. It seems like a easy-and-easy session. All i did was to talk crap and plan stuff and alittle wrecking of the brains. Hahaha. I did make new friends indeed. All of them didn't really seem very sociable at first. Then when it comes to making a stand, all 5 teams started waging war. However, when we all came into a conclusion, we all became friends :D Well, i hope tomorrow's not gonna be as boring as today.

Enough of school, now i wanna rant. You might not wanna continue reading this.

THEIRRITATINGHAZEISFREAKIGNANNOYINGANDITISMAKINGMEFEELDAMNAWFUL. IVEBEENSNEEZINGTHEWHOLEDAMNDAYTHANKSTOINDONESIAFORTHEHAZE!

Okay i'm done. I need to sleep now. Damn tired. Goodnight peeps!

The Start Of Something New

2010-10-17T22:36:00.007+08:00

Tomorrow's gonna be the first day of a whole new brand semester! When the feeling of anticipation kicks in, it really does kicks me. I'm really looking forward to meeting new people and EMRS!

Well, i hope this will be the start of something new. No more exams, no more test. Just some plain intelligence with a 9 to 5 job.

"It's not just what you say to people and it's not the way you look at me. It's the way you present yourself for all your worst critics to see."
- New Found Glory

This Made My Day!

2010-10-16T23:30:00.001+08:00

Best Seller

2010-10-15T23:36:00.021+08:00

Caught "Best Seller" with Darrick @ J8. It was supposed to a horror movie but turns out to be quite a mystery kind of movie. The plot was quite well planned out with alittle controversy here and there. Quite a lot of blood i would say and it's alittle draggy. Hahahaha. Oh and it's a Korean movie! Many would know i'm not into korean stuff but the synopsis of the movie was kinda interesting so i went with the flow. Lol. Overall quite a good movie to catch. I'll rate it 4 outta 5 stars :D

Anyway, i really really liked the feeling of being in the dark. It's felt like there's only you and yourself. Everything else around you didn't matter no more. But the moment the lights were on, the feeling kinda suck. It's like "welcome back to reality! booo."

Okay that was random. Lemme continue with what i wanna type before i forget.

Ever wondered how easy it was to sleep when you were young?
Waking up in the morning like it's a brand new start to everything without even an alarm clock?
Having only $2 in your pocket and it's enough to survive?
Being colour-blind to whoever we met?
Treating everyone the same way you treated yourself?
Being contented with all the fun you are having without worrying for tomorrow?
Hiding and throwing away the canes that hurt you?
Hitting the sacks without being told when the clock strikes 10?

Well, it's alittle different now.

We get insomnia so often now because we worry too much.
Waking up in the morning by a irritating alarm clock and thinking about the shit we needed to go thru.
Having $10 in your pocket is considered insufficient.
We treated people of different skin colours differently because we had different cultures, views and outlook of life.
Treating different people differently because the "awkwardness" element existed.
Hoping you rather get caned by your parents when you mess with the law.
Not sleeping at the right time even when you being told.

Ahahaha. I seriously missed those times when i live in the luxury of simplicity. It starts to get more complicated as people grow older. The mind starts to gets creative and indirectly tries to mind fcuk you. Haha that reminded me of Inception.

I guess i should end here.

Humans are eccentric, decipher this phenomenon.

Dilemma

2010-10-13T23:20:00.002+08:00

Well. I kinda got to know something which i'm not supposed to have know. Awww. I'm shocked to the brim like seriously. Though it doesn't really concerns me but i'm amazed at the stupidity of that person. How naive can one get? But as far as i know - actions speaks louder than words.

Went town with Yan Zhi & Terrill today. Had wendy's for lunch. Nothing special actually. It's just a normal burger with fries and drinks. I'm not alittle surprised at all, haha. Went Plaza Sing and saw this Nescafe event which was going on - 100 hours of movie. Each contestant have to endure 100 hours of movie spree with no sleep and the reward is 1000 dollars of cold hard cash!

As i'm typing, they are still happily watching the movies which is screening on a outdoor TV platform. The one you'll see at Suntec Convention Centre. The quality was so-so with everything so pixelated. I'm just wondering how they gonna survive man. Hahaha.

Enough of all that. My brother just gotten his iPhone 4 yesterday and my sister just gotten her's today! I so wanna get it like naoooo. The feeling of waiting and waiting for my contract to be officially over isn't thrilling and it's just plain annoying. Wanted to wait for the white to be out which is supposed to come out before X'mas but i'm keeping my hopes low for now. I'm still contemplating on whether to hook the 16gb or the 32gb one though. Maybe i should just hook the black one anytime sooner before school starts. It'll be pointless to wait any longer. I just needed a phone to keep me from boredom.

Gonna go snuggle in my bed for now. Goodnight! (:

Where Is The Love?

2010-10-13T00:30:00.005+08:00

What's wrong with the world mama?

People living like aint got no mamas

I think the whole worlds addicted to the drama

Only attracted to the things that bring you trauma

Overseas yeah we tryin to stop terrorism

But we still got terrorists here livin

In the USA the big CIA the Bloodz and the Crips and the KKK

But if you only have love for your own race

Then you only leave space to discriminate

And to discriminate only generates hate

And if you hatin you're bound to get irate

Yeah madness is what you demonstrate

And that's exactly how anger works and operates

You gotta have love just to set it straight

Take control of your mind and meditate

Let your soul gravitate to the love y'all

People killing people dying

Children hurtin you hear them crying

Can you practice what you preach

Would you turn the other cheek?

Father Father Father help us

Send some guidance from above

Cause people got me got me questioning

Where is the love?

It just ain't the same all ways have changed

New days are strange is the world the insane?

If love and peace so strong

Why are there pieces of love that don't belong

Nations dropping bombs

Chemical gases filling lungs of little ones

With ongoing suffering

As the youth die young

So ask yourself is the loving really strong?

So I can ask myself really what is going wrong

With this world that we living in

People keep on giving in

Makin wrong decisions

Only visions of them livin and

Not respecting each other

Deny thy brother

The wars' going on but the reasons' undercover

The truth is kept secret

Swept under the rug

If you never know truth

Then you never know love

Where's the love y'all?

Where's the truth y'all?

Where's the love y'all?

People killing people dying

Children hurtin you hear them crying

Can practice what you preach

Would you turn the other cheek?

Father father father help us

Send some guidance from above

Cause people got me got me questioning

Where is the love?

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder

As I'm getting older y'all people get colder

Most of us only care about money makin

Selfishness got us followin the wrong direction

Wrong information always shown by the media

Negative images is the main criteria

Infecting their young minds faster than bacteria

Kids wanna act like what the see in the cinema

Whatever happened to the values of humanity

Whatever happened to the fairness and equality

Instead of spreading love, we're spreading anomosity

Lack of understanding, leading us away from unity

That's the reason why sometimes I'm feeling under

That's the reason why sometimes I'm feeling down

It's no wonder why sometimes I'm feeling under

I gotta keep my faith alive, until love is found

People killing people dying

Children hurtin you hear them crying

Can you practice what you preach

Would you turn the other cheek?

Father Father Father help us

Send some guidance from above

Cause people got me got me questioning

Where is the love?

10/10/10 10:10:10pm

2010-10-10T22:10:00.002+08:00

Happy 10 October 2010 @ 10:10:10pm!

This date has nothing special to celebrate about but surprisingly, it is the most unexpected event of the year where everyone is looking forward to.

School's starting next week and i can't wait!

Another feeling of anticipation - 18/10/2010, lol! :X

Sony Vaio

2010-10-09T22:54:00.002+08:00

Awwwwwwwwwww. Work's alittle draggy today. Hardly see any customers in the store. Only manage to sell a pathetic netbook. Goodness.

But it was all well when i get to catch up with the sales staff i haven't seen for long. Met new promotors as well and we killed time by talking crap.

Tomorrow's gonna be a long day again. I don't really like working now though, unless you give me lots of sales. Hahahaha :D

Peace out for now.

Evergreen

2010-10-09T00:57:00.007+08:00

Woohoo. Life's great - at least for now. Everything's going at a slow pace and i'm loving every moment of it. Spent some time to chill here and there for the past few days. Went to cut my hair but it became straighten instead, lol. Met Darrick for starbucks today and drank my fill of green tea frappuccino while he study and i apparently did nothing.

Gonna start working again tomorrow, after so long. This time round its gonna be @ TPY's courts. Awesome! I miss that damn place. Hahaha.

Anyway, that's all for now. I'm trying my best to revert my time back to normal. Can't afford to screw TEP (:

Goodnight! 

Thoughts

2010-10-08T00:08:00.000+08:00

When i see your face, there's not a thing that i would change.

Cause you're amazing, just the way you are.

TEP Listing

2010-10-06T11:33:00.008+08:00

Okay, i got this from someone. Not sure if it's confidential but i'm sure its reliable. I'll post it up here anyway.

Good luck to all for TEP :D

PS: Your class rep is still doing his job okay! Hahahaha.

UPDATE (thanks to matthew): http://www.nyp.edu.sg/SBM/teporientation/

Wall Street: Money Never Sleeps

2010-10-05T23:48:00.005+08:00

The initial plan for today was to drop by the N.A chalet. However, was told that the BBQ would be tomorrow instead and many would only be coming tomorrow.

Decided a change of plans and went movie with Darrick instead. Caught Wall Street @ J8. It was kinda interesting i would say - the controversy of money and all. But it's alittle confusing at the start, gotta need time to process the information though.

Anyway, i would rate it 3.5/5 stars as it's a lot of talking and alittle draggy here and there. However, still a show that's worth watching! (:

PS: Oh, I got hold of the TEP listing from someone. Not sure if its confidential but i'll post it up tomorrow morning for all.

That's all, goodnight!

Post Birthday Celebration

2010-10-05T13:12:00.007+08:00

Went town for our (Ervin & Me) long awaited post-birthday celebration with Genevie, Ben, Yan Zhi, Terrill & He Shun. It was awesome. Terrill tried to fool us but it didn't work. Ahahaha.

Watched "The Other Guy" but IMO, it wasn't really naise. Though it's alittle funny here & there but it's about the Ponzi Scam thingy, something that works like an MLM firm - Multi Level Marketing. But still worth watching to keep yourself out from falling into such scams. One example is our local saga: Sunshine Empire. Should go google it :D

Anyway, went Sakura Buffet @ Dhoby Gaunt. The food was naise but the variety kinda little. Overall not a bad experience. I love raw salmon :D Inititally, i felt alittle awkward cos i haven't really met up with the clique for some time. But after alittle while, it was okay! (: We were discussing about how lucky we were this semester to be able to pull up our grades. Next semester will be a tough one still.

After dinner, went BUTIK BATOK to chill. I was dragging myself over cos it's like so freaking far. Ahaha. The initial plan was to ton over night, but my eyes are killing me cos i wore new colour contacts that made my eyes super dry. Played ice man - it was gen's idea, then i left for the last train (sorry guys) while they were there to "uhh uhh" thru the night. Ahahaha.

Only took one photo cos all of them were camera shy! But still, thanks for making the effort to shop for Ervin & my "difficult" present & for celebrating our birthdays! :D:D

Batam Trip

2010-10-04T06:08:00.014+08:00

Woohoo. Alright, my trip to Batam was really awesome. The time difference between Singapore and Indonesia was an hour, kept getting mixed up. 10pm in Singapore is only 9pm in Batam. Had lots of fun though. Went with dad and his company which included people from Bangladesh, Myanmar, China, India, Burma, Malaysia & lastly Singapore. Well, the whole trip was kinda ironic. Will elaborate more below.

Ferry Terminal

It started off with waiting for the ferry at the jetty at Harbour Front. It was a first experience for me man. The experience of it was some what similar to what you'll feel at the airport. All the passport procedures, the stamping, the boarding pass and etc. The trip was merely a one hour ride. Okay here comes the funny part - It felt weird when i went to pee! The ferry went up & down, the same goes to ma pee. Ahaha.

Kueh Lapis

Upon arrival, the tour guide brought us to their home made kueh lapis shop. 25 SGD for the whole cake. Kinda expensive i supposed? I must admit, the kueh lapis was damn naise but didn't bought any cos it's alittle over priced.

Tua Peh Gong Temple

Went there after the kueh lapis thingy, nothing much to talk about. Ahaha.

Massage

THIS IS THE AWESOME PART OF THE WHOLE TRIP. Dad said the full body massage was included in the tour package. So i had a choice either a full body massage or just the leg massage. However, since everyone went with the full body massage, i just had to go along with the flow man.

As usual, it was my first time! I don't know what to do. We went into this big room where there were lots of bed (it sounded super wrong) or you can call it mattress, lol. Curtains were then used to divide the mattresses. Well, i don't really knew what to do, so just sat on the mat waiting for the massager to come. Then "pop", this super cute young girl just peek in to see. And i was like "wah i wished my massager was her". I think she went round choosing who to massage but then 10 mins later, she came back in and ask me to stripe! I was like "ARE YOU SERIOUS?" Ahahaha. Then i was told to change into the shorts which was on the bed. Well, she waited outside the curtain while i was changing. Don't get your dirty thought running :X

So the massage session started off with cleaning my feet with a hot towel and then she started creaming all over my body. The bad part was her english wasn't good. She tried communicating with me in english but the only thing i understand was name, study and age. After that she started communicating in malay all the way with me, and the only thing i said was "aku ta tau wu"! So i had no choice, communicating with sign language was the only way out. It was freaking hilarious i swear. She only was 18! The rest of the massager who i saw were ages ranging from 25-30 above. I'm one damn lucky bastard :D

Half way thru, she tried going on top of me. My back i meant! She said something like step massage where she'll step on my back to massage which i reject. Lol. After that she said stomach massage. I've never heard stomach massage before, so i gave it a try. Then she started massaging and it was super ticklish which i couldn't stand so i didn't wanted to continue. Cos it looked as though, she was trying to tickle me. Lol.

After that, it was steam towel massage then lastly head massage. Awesome experience though! Wanted to take a picture with her but didn't had time :(

Golden Prawn Batam

Went there for lunch. Heard it was opened by a Singaporean. The lobster was awesome. Ate a whole damn chunk of it :D

Golden View Hotel

Headed back to the hotel to rest as we're gonna have a BBQ session near the pool side of the hotel around evening. Slept for 2 hours then went for the BBQ. Didn't took much photos though. The old uncles were busy singing and the bangladesh foreign workers were busying dancing so i kept myself busy with eating. Ahaha.

Here comes another ironic part. There's this whole bunch of girls waiting at the pool side. Then one by one, they started disappearing with foreign workers. The event only lasted 2 hours and most of the workers are already having their happy time in the room, lol. Oh well, it was fun as everyone were enjoying themselves crazily with beer and red wine.

I wanted to smoke but can't as my dad was around. So i had to ask from some bangladesh worker to offer me a stick and go some far end to smoke.

Day 2

I'm lazy to elaborate much on day 2 as it was only filled with visiting temples, church, a refugee camp and shopping :D

Bought a couple of tees and home sweet home! :D You should visit Batam if you have the chance. Not for prostitution of cos! Haha.

Alright gonna go for breakfast and do some stuff. Meeting my clique later for my post-birthday celebration.

Peace out! :D

Home Sweet Home

2010-10-03T21:05:00.003+08:00

Back from Batam! It was fun, but i'm super tired right now. Will update again tomorrow after i get my rest.

Lemme get your brains wrecking alittle: I got molested by a pretty girl. It was pretty nice!

I'll continue tomorrow! Happy guessing! See ya :P

Boredom

2010-10-02T01:11:00.019+08:00

Well, i'm alittle lazy to categorize my blog post. So i'll just type whatever i want, any-oh-how. Don't blame me if you get lost alright? :D

You know when boredom starts kicking in, it really gets awful on da inside? Aha, shit man. My body clock is really messed up. I'm like super awake at night and i sleep in the day.

How i wish school would commerce any time sooner. I know some of you guys are gonna kill me for saying this. But everyone's been busy working during the holidays, ain't no fun no more. Guess what? I only worked 2 pathetic days ever since exams ended! :X

Damn. I'm so broke but i have lots of free time. This is real vexing. I've stayed home for a number of days. It's like the dogs and me. Me and the dogs. The puppies and me. Me and the puppies. I've been clearing shit and pee almost everyday but i ain't no shit collector.

I think it's almost time to quit smoking too. My body are showing some effects. I get insomnia so badly without cigarettes. Oh well. Whenever i think about smoking marihuana in Holland, i get so excited that i hesitated for a moment and say "aiya, i'll quit after i'm back from Holland". But who knows man? Aha.

Before i forget, i'm so proud of my results! Seriously speaking, i never expected myself to be able to achieve such results. Some of you might have heard it, i totally screwed up Business Law. I gave up 15 mins before the paper ended. Left the whole chunk of 25 marks almost blank. Wrote 1-2 lines for each question. How much possibly can i get from that 1-2 lines out of a 9 marks question? I even calculated, the most i'll get was a C or C+. Surprisingly, it was a B+! Like God damn it! I thought i was dreaming for a moment. I'm like so over the moon.

Gave PCC a called after that and was even happier to hear that i'll be doing TEP instead of Year 3 Sem 1! Totally awesome! But still, i should stay humble. If not i'll get complacent like what happened last semester. Good job to all who did well too! :D

Anyway, i hope i'll get to enjoy alittle bit more before school starts cos it's gonna be another bumpy ride.

PS: Lemme know if you want me to link you, i'm still in the midst of editing here & there.

Lastly, Happy Holidays! :D

Something More

2010-10-01T03:14:00.005+08:00

Awesome. I spent the whole day trying to code the "like" button you see at the bottom of this post while searching for a new blogskin. Did some editing of the picture with words on it too. Included formspring and nuffnang as well. Lol, i believe - this is it! Kinda happy with the overall feel :D

Anyway, i'll be heading to Batam with my dad tomorrow till Sunday.

See you soon peeps!

"I have had dreams and I have had nightmares, but I have conquered my nightmares because of my dreams."

- Jonas Salk

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2010-08-20T04:38:00.000+08:00

Hooray! I'm back to this awesome blogging scene. I just felt there is a need to blog down certain events. No more no less. Haha.

Can you believe it? Time really flies. So much has changed, so much.

The times when i fall, i picked myself up and push myself to do better.

The times where i had to go thru the night alone. Enduring the shit i had.

The times when i didn't felt like carrying on.

I have so many more things to look forward to. But sometimes we just gotta look back to truly appreciate the people around us who have made a difference in our lives, the things that happened for a reason. All these were the things that kept me going.

In another 5 more months, i'll be gone for good. Escaping from this unrealistic age of comfort.
Off to the Netherlands where freedom is nothing but free.

You believed? Cos i believed.